Another rambling... on a cloudy Thursday afternoon.

I have a friend who has gone through abortion, not twice but a few uncountable times. Only the 1st one she went with her parents. The rest, she did it on her own and bore it alone. One fine day I asked her why. She just looked at me and with tears-filled-eyes she mumbled, It's ok. As long as no one knows, no one will be sad or angry. And then, we hugged and cried in each others arms.

God loves you, no matter what you've done and what you've been through. He knows why things happen in your life. He knows your heart and he knows how long you can endure such suffering. He never abandons you so you should never give up hope. God knows. He loves you still. 

Time to understand.

I'm gonna let this song by Darius Rucker to do the explanation. It's the kind of song that we should listen to everyday, all time and all day long.

A Wednesday afternoon ramblings.

If I can define my life in just one word, it shall be 'lucky'. ... Or maybe 'blessed', I don't know. I'm kinda torn with those two. Anyway, yes, if I can sum up my life with a word it will be either one of those two. For those who have been with me all these while, either from the start till now or picked up somewhere till now, it has been quite a wild ride, isn't it? With all the drama, the fun, the tears, the lies... yes you read it right, the madness, the songs, the tantrums, the sleeping and snooping around, the gossip, the weekly night party, the crazy days, the unscrupulous cravings and many more fun times better left unsaid. If I were to be reincarnated again in the next life, should there be a next life, I would like to go through it all again. Not even changing the little cell of details. Not to say I don't have regrets, I do. But to change it and not to learn from it that would be suicidal. So, let it be whatever it is and whatever it may be.    

My life: Less f***ing perfect!

So life gets f***ed up sometimes. And sometimes it gets a little wild and fun at the same time. Sometimes I do wonder why do I want to be accepted like everybody else when in truth being me is all that matters. You wanna know why? It's lonely. Yeah I got families around me and sometimes a variety of cool friends that I can depend on at every step of my journey. But still it is so much more relax and less agitation to be able to blend in and given the approval nod. So, okay. In the world today, there's a saying that goes like this, 'If you can't stand out then die in silence'. What's wrong with this people? Some of us actually love being behind the scenes. Not everyone wants to be superstars. Yes everyone has dreams, and mind you it's different from yours and mine. Everybody wants to be rich yes but for different reasons. You know what, I don't really know where the hell I'm going with this but just cope with me for another minute.

Yes. Life is full of surprises. Sometimes we make the wrong turn and regret it and sometimes we play safe because.. well we just decide to play safe, ok. But from where I've been and where I'm going I know the one thing I should take with me all the time is the strength to learn and let go. I am a firm believer of there are reasons behind every happenings. So if I fail, it's ok. My God has a reason for that but do I quit? No. I should go on because I believe that I will learn from the experience and some day soon I will succeed. I just have to believe that, that’s all.

I thank God for my amnesia???

I thank God for my awful memories. 

I thank God that in certain areas of my life long journey, 

I can't seem to recall the details. 

I thank God that I can forget things, bad things and sad things. 

But most of all I thank God that thou my memories are failing 

my heart can still dream of the beautiful stuffs 

and can still hope for beautiful days.